So that is what I have been working on accomplishing. My mood and level of stress has been much improved. And to top it off my intern was to start Friday. I was thrilled. The intern would share the joy, stress and work load of teaching. She would be someone to share my day with. Someone to give me a fresh perspective on teaching and new ideas. Not to mention that I would get a break form grading and planning and actually get to enjoy the kids, undertake some big organizational projects of my own, and keep prom work in between the hours of 8-3. Everything was going smoothly.
Wednesday night Noah and I drove to Birmingham so that I could eat dinner with some college friends. The first day of the new semester had gone well and I got the kids pumped up about the spring and out intern. We got to my parents house, (they were going to eat with Noah and watch him) just a little late. Somewhere between the car and their front door, I lost my keys. No problem, my mom had a spare set so I could go on to dinner. Dinner was great. We had so much fun talking and catching up that I lost track of time. It was nine before I realized it. I got back to my parents and remembered that I must find my keys. Luckily my parents have infinite patience with me and losing things. My mom and I searched for thirty minutes before I found them in a gutter down the street. It was ten before Noah and were headed back to Tuscaloosa. He slept the whole way which went from an hour drive to an hour and a half with traffic problems. (An over sized load truck with state trooper escorts going 50 miles an hour!) Needless to say it was midnight before I fell into bed after a long day. But I thought, no problem my intern will be here Friday and I won't be so tired.
Thursday I woke up late and not in the five o clock hour. I packed my Bible and the studies I am working on to do at school in a free moment. When I got there, in my email box was the worst news I've received in a long time. Intern Placement Canceled. Apparently she had been to my school during a clinical placement and had not been successful. ???? Not sure what that means. But it did mean that I don't have an intern. All my hope for the semester began to swirl down the drain. All the plans and the rest. The break I had finally caught. Gone. My hope for the spring began to turn to bitterness. And I hate bitterness. My bitter day turned for the worst when a fight broke out in my room at the end of third period. Desks knocked over, shirts removed. It triggered a severe tension headache as I thought about another rough semester. Without an intern.
An eighth of my bitterness faded with a milkshake from my friend with third period prep. Half my bitterness dissolved when I saw these sweet faces and heard their laughter.
But I won't lie, a little bitterness crept back when all the teachers around me introduced their interns to me Friday morning and I thought about the semester of hope. But God was faithful. I had a good day with my kids. Even third period was good after a stern word about yesterday's fight (which you might have been able to catch pictures of on Myspace if I hadn't deleted the pictures of the girl's camera) . And on the way home to be with Adam and Noah I was reminded that my hope, my joy , and my optimism doesn't come from circumstances it comes the assurance of my faith.
5 comments:
aww Carrie, I am so sorry that the intern didn't work out. That stinks. Your high school sounds a lot like where I used to teach, so I understand the frustration (a bit, I wasn't a mother at the time). Anyway, I am glad you had new perspective on Friday. This is what I think--one day at a time!
I am SOOOO sorry! I pray you will have an amazing rest of the year with little issues :) I am so sorry!
I am very proud of you! You are handling it well. And really...only an eighth? I guess I should have gotten the large after all. :(
Oh Carrie... I am so ready for you to catch a break.
You really do deserve one. :)
Hey Carrie!
I had 2 interns last year, and they were a mixed blessing. You would have had to work double to get them trained, I promise. They are ice, but It is okay that it didn't happen - what if you had gotten the one who couldn't cut it? That would definitely be more stress! You are doing great, I am sure!!
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