The Five Years

Five years ago at this time I was freaking out. I was five hours away from getting married. If I could go back and tell this nervous girl something it would be this.....

you can not even begin to imagine how Adam will love you. You can not even imagine his calm and strength when you need him. your life will be full of joy and you will have pain but through it all he will be steady and true. you can not imagine the way he will bring you peace and comfort. or the way he will love you in your worst moments.

I have been reflecting on our marriage this week. And I keep getting the word, humble.

Probably because Adam is humble. Maybe one of the most humble people I know. He is amazing and talented at many things (none as much as he is talented at being a husband and father) but rarely takes credit.

And then Adam humbles me with the way he loves me. That girls five years ago wasn't really thinking about all the low points her future would hold. Or how Adam would love her through them. Marriage makes you vulnerable. This person sees everything you are and everything you do from the gross (Rome Incident, for those of you who know the story!), painful, sickness, mistakes, words you wish you could take back, bad habits, selfish behavior, etc. Not only has Adam been patient with me in all of these situations he loves me because of them. Many times he has looked at me at my lowest points and said, "you are adorable" or "you are amazing" or "you are beautiful". Wow.

And this is how he does the job he promised he would in our vows, to bring me back to Christ. Through his selfless love and service an humility he points me back to the Savior who loves me despite all my flaws and again and again proves his love for me when I don't deserve it.

Thank you Adam for loving me with the love of Christ, for the memories and support of the past five years.