Noah playing hide and seek in my closet.1. Why do babies have an obsession for cords??
2. Noah went back to the doctor and he has a sinus infection. Which is not contagious, good news to all of you we have in contact with lately. After several days of aches, congestion, sore throat and a low grade fever, I took a sick day and also went to the doctor, he said, "you have a red throat." I got a shot and two antibiotics. But no diagnosis. All I cared about were the drugs anyway.
3) The worst night of my red throat sickness was Wednesday night. Adam, the angel I am married to, put fed, bathed and put Noah down and then put me to be with plenty of fluid and medicine and then took Charlie to sleep in the guest room. I laid alone in bed and instead of resting, sobbed. I felt like a complete failure. I had run myself ragged, allowed stress to take control. And I had failed:
a) as a teacher by not having the next two weeks planned out like a planned to
b) God by not spending the forty minutes each morning in prayer
c) as a wife and mother by not giving my boys the attention the deserve, lets not even mention Charlie or other family and friends
d) and myself for not working out even five minutes this week and succumbing to the new temptation in the teacher's lounge the drink machine with SunKist.
I didn't just sit around and waste time. I got to school by 7:15 every morning and stayed until at least 5:15. And I was up till 11 pm or later and up by 5:45. I could not understand why I failed. Except that I am weak, a weak worthless woman who can't do more than one thing at a time. And life is doomed to be stressful and miserable forever. And then God spoke in my heart. Yes I am not built to be supermom. And yes some women are. I was created to be me. Yes stress and long hours had taken their toll by exhausting my body, mind and soul. And yes I should take better care of my self. But the reasons for my perceived failures were because I had tried to do it on my own. Without God. And while on my own I will never be able to cross 100 things of my to do list in an 18 hour day, I was created to do great things with God's help. And together we can prioritize, organize, plan and enjoy life!
3. The Shack is a great book. My mother bought me a copy a month or so ago and said nothing but, read it. Last night and today while resting and recovering from my red throat I read it. It is fantastic. And it spoke straight to my heart! I highly suggest it.
4. How many of you would rather see a day old Olympic gymnastic meet broadcast at seven than fall asleep trying to stay up to see it live?
5. Noah has a lot of hair. I think I am leaning towards getting his first haircut. What first haircut memories do you have to share? Tips or suggestions??
This video is of Noah playing in my closet. Who needs toys when you have skirts to hide in???
2 comments:
Don't be so hard on yourself. We wear many hats and cannot do it all at once and are not letting anyone down (especially God) when strive to do out best and get them all done. Just know that you must pace your self. I have learned from my twins when they are both screaming at me to be fed and or just want to be held just when I start to do something that needs to be done around the house to QP (quick prioritize). Just assess what needs to get done and rank them in the order of what can and can't wait. The bottom half of your list (that can wait) you can ask Adam or a friend to help you with. Then later, when you are less busy and your friends are busy, offer to do something for them. BREATHE.
Post about what your classses or daily school schedule is like this year. I am interested. I get the feeling that our ... I am calling you right now :)
C...I've been staying up to see all the very late Olympic broadcasts!! And I am very tired, but I figure that it only comes around every four years...
Don't be so hard on yourself. I mean it.
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