For Christmas I asked for a book called Mission of Motherhood by Sally
Clarkson. I wanted this book because I believed it to be about establishing a nurturing, supportive home
environment in which to raise children who love God. What I didn't bargain for was the chapters on the importance of staying home with your kids. This is what I interpreted as I read: She stresses that this is God's design and plan for motherhood. She argues that the increase of working mothers over the last century has led to the breakdown of society. That you can not be truly
successful at God's
definition of motherhood if your heart is divided between your job and your children. You can of course still love your children but you can't really complete your mission. Christ will of course forgive you. But you should really try to work something out so you can be at home. And your finances will take care of themselves.
The thing is that I believe that if possible moms should spend as much time as possible nurturing their kids. I believe that is God's design.I am certainly not a career woman. I am not out to become the state
superintent. I am
completely satisfied to be a classroom teacher from here on out. I do enjoy my job but I believe that Noah and Adam are more important than my classroom. I find satisfaction in teaching and feel that I am just where God wants me to be. I would of course prefer to be at home full time. But its not really possible for everyone. My financial situation will not just sort itself out.
So after an hour of guilt ridden sobbing I put aside the book and pulled out my Bible to find comfort and security in God's love for me and my family. I thought how most of the authors I have read and studied have shared
Clarkson's ideas. Where are the books for Christian women who want to raise children and have to work? Where are the examples on how to survive and maintain balance? The books for Christian working mothers?
After a while I picked the book back up and skipped ahead past part one. I did find practical ideas on creating the peaceful nurturing home life. It was the book I was hoping it would be. But in the back of my head I still hear the voice, can I do it all? Really?